many thoughts

I'm sitting at work and wonder about life. I'm working on a hospital so I see much. Atm am I thinking about the brain and how it works. I mean when you get old and you forget your children or grand children. You don't know what day it is or what year. You think you are going to work or asking after your father that has been dead for ages. That's just so sad, what happens with the brain when you get old. It's fascinated how the brain work. So many questions but so little answers. Everyone can get alziemers or any other illness like that but there is so little answers about why and how to stop it to happen. I'm gonna start study about this in the end of this month and that is gonna be so much fun. To get to know more, but the funny thing is there isnt so much about it, I think I will start study the brain, I want to know what's happen.
I have been working with people with this problems for years now and I think its sad both for the person and the relative to this person. One day they doesn't know anything and the next they can be perfectly fine. The most fascinated with all this is that they go back to be kids again. Why does that happen? Like I said so many questions so little answers.

I'm working mostly nights atm, starting 9pm and ending 7 am in the morning. I'm home around 8-10am depending on what day in working. I don't have the driving license yet so I have to wait for buses and so on. Today are my friend Chilli out on flirting.missions and I will get a fully report from him later and I will type about what he has done and how it has gone for him. :) I hope I can make a flirt blog soon again for you. Well gonna do what I'm best on atm. Doing my job. Have a nice day and night.

over and out

~ Lily

one mission complete, now the next one.

well this Day turned out to be pretty good even thou I haven't slept sense yesterday morning. :) sitting on the bus now about to go home from work. Around 11 am did a feel really tired but then I got some or alot of more stuff to do at work and I woke up again. :)

now to the next task of this day, keep myself up until at least 9 pm. That's gonna be a challenge. Lets hope its not mission impossible 5. :P lol yeah I did a movie reference. :) well I have 3 movies atm I haven't seen yet 2 with Jon bon jovi <3 and one with a Swedish comedian named Björn Gustavsson.

well I have misty to go out with a few time too before bed time so I think.... Maybe.... I can keep myself up for at least some hours. :)

well I'm gonna close my eyes on the bus its 45 mins before I have to go off. :)

over and out
~Lily

fibromyalgia, my love and work!

Im cursed. i dont have it on paper yet but i'm apparently have fibromyalgia. And it suckes to be honest. im always tired, always pain in my body, i got easily tired when i do something like fixing in the apartment or something like that. I forget stuff some days and my eyes get foggy now and then.

Its an curse to have this, i wouldnt give it to my worse enemy. It really sucks.
I have good days and bad days and now sense i started my new work i only have had bad days mostly. All i want to do is sleep. sleep and sleep. Im trying to be up and do stuff anyway cuz i cant be laying in bed all days. Im happy that i have my wonderful dog that i can spend time with and be out with. Some ppl get puched away even thou i dont want to puch them away.

Speaking of work, now are we starting to update our server to 8.1 so we have alot to do.
Fixing the plugins for that version, rebuild the world we had but this time i think it will be more amazing. we can do so mush more in 8.1 then we could before. :)


Over and out
~ Lily

All about work

im not looking forward to next week. :P Im working 5 out of 7 days. mostly mornings. i'm not a morning person. but what don't you do for work. :P Tomorrow do i have evening so my week starting off pretty good anyhow. :P But the rest of the week only mornings. well well that will work anyway. I love my new work, working on the hospital i was laying on a week ago. :P Pretty fun to be honest.

So today is all about my dog and just taking it easy so im not to tired tomorrow. =)

Havent been talking with my Friend Chili in awhile so i don't know anything new about the flirting study we where about to do. Well its summer and a lot of work for us summer worker/time worker when the others have vacation. I want to have 4 weeks of vacation as well and getting payed for it. :P That had been nice hadn't it? :P

well gonna be with my dog now and just chillaxe abit. :)

Hosptial and no stress.

Nothing is so fun as an Hospital visit. Was there for a couple of hours took like 51 tests, They took a lot of blood from me. :( They checked everything in my upper body sense i had so much pain in my Belly i couldn't stand up for to long. So now im sore in my arm after the needle and my finger after some other tests and my belly is going on and off on the pain. Will take a few days before the pain starting to go away and if it doesn't... Well an other visit on the hospital. Funny thing is thou i'm working there aswell. so i was laying on my work having my collages checking me. :P they have to do something for they payoff right? xD


Im having a nice moment now with my pain so that why i can sit here and type some, cuz as soon as the pain comes i cant sit straight up. :( that sucks. And my doctor told me no Stress. How the fuck im a suppose to not Stress? :O Im a girl that like to have a lot of things to do at once, I'm living by myself with my cute dog, I see a lot of things that i have to do but i cant stress. I need to vakkum, doing the dishes, doing the laundry, cleaning in my office, and so on. And my doc told me to take it easy the first days at least. Well take it easy for me is doing nothing, laying in bed watching a movie. Well i guess the cleaning and stuff can wait a couple of days don't you think? :P
But saying no stress is like saying no cigarettes for someone that is smoking. A well, gonna take it easy a few days at least. =)

Im having the most amazing dog every anyway, she is taking care of me, laying beside me checking me all the time. Doesn't do much when i'm sick. she is just enjoying my company in bed. =)

Well gonna go and lay down for abit again,

Have a nice day everyone. =) <3


Over and out
~Lily